Feeling Really Down Today

I'm feeling very discouraged today pondering our current circumstances. I feel lost and with no clue yet what we're supposed to be doing. We came all the way here with our family. The move was costly for us. We left friends and family. People sacrificed to help us get here. Sent us off with their love and blessings. We were hopeful and excited for the new course that was set.

We arrived and things were not the way we thought they were. We feel we came here under false pretenses on many levels. That all doesn't matter now. The fact is, we're here, we're not doing what we came here to do, we're not able to exist here under the present circumstances, and we have no idea where to go or what to do. It's such a scary place to be. Especially with having small children, with one of them in school and not wanting to disrupt their lives because of what's going on.

Some days, I can get through, walking in faith, and keeping the routine going. But on days like this, when there's a little more time to think and face reality, I feel overwhelmed and without hope.